Feeling like shit again

So when I do something wrong, I feel like shit. And then I do something right for a change, and then I still feel like shit.
Also, it's very annoying when you feel like crying but you can't, because you have dinner in a few minutes. And then you just think like.. "I can cry as much as I want after dinner" and then after dinner you can't cry anymore. Like what? T_T It's actually very annoying. Sometimes you just /want/ to cry to get it all out and then it's very annoying if you can't.
Aaaand I'm really a daydreamer. Today I was daydreaming like all the time - also in school and I can tell you, it's not very smart because you don't learn a thing then. You don't even hear what people are saying. Also funny, you see their mouth move, but you have no idea what they're saying. But it's annoying when you're daydreaming about something you wish was real. Which I do pretty much all the time. In that case, my life is kinda one big dream. The annoying part of this just is that it's about love, and I don't get that physically. At least not yet, which really sucks... But yeah, dreams are quite lovely then.