Yeah I don't even know what I just did, um... But because of something that happened earlier today (not gonna tell you nanananana) I got a bit afraid. Just a several minutes ago (really?) I said I suggested a double-date: Me, Dennis, Joy and Colin together on a date, *yays* and all that. But just now I thought like... What if something happened, and Dennis stopped loving me? Okay, so it's not a huge deal if we won't go on a double-date, I don't really care, you know... It would be fun, but well. It's more a big deal if Dennis stopped loving me, because I know what it's like when you're in love with someone who doesn't love you back and really, it doesn't have to be dramatic and whatever, but it's usually really annoying. I would accept it, but I don't want it, you know? I don't want Dennis to stop loving me, I would love it if people would stop walking out of my life right now. Where is he when I need him?
Now I also realised people don't need me. Because really, apart from copying homework, why would someone need me? I can't cheer people up, I can't make people laugh, I can't help people, I think negative as hell so how could I make someone think positively? Sometimes I just wish someone would really need me. Sometimes I wish someone would lie in bed at night, wishing I was there, maybe to hold that person, maybe to hear that person out, I don't even care about what the reason is. Sometimes I just want people to need me too.
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