Except for the fact that my body likes to be hurt somehow... Anyway, yeah I feel alright right now. I don't exactly know why, but oh well, who cares anyway?
Also, today when we had to clean up after art class I was waiting to hang something up (1. I don't know what that thing is called and 2. this sounds weird now, doesn't it?) and Nienke, who used to be a friend of mine and now hates me somehow and blocked me on whatsapp (fair enough, I didn't want to leave her alone so I guess I irritated her as hell) um anyway, yeah she's been ignoring me for a while, and she wanted to hang.. The same thing up, and I decided to say "You can give it to me, I'll do it for you" (after all I'm much taller than she is, so it was easier for me) and she didn't ignore me *yays*. Congratulations if you can follow the story. Point is, she didn't ignore me and kind of treated me like a normal classmate. But I think it was only because I offered her some help with something small like that. I just wish she would unblock me on whatsapp and fully treat me like a normal classmate, like, that she won't ignore me at all... Then I can just live with the fact that we're not friends anymore.
The reason why I can't live with that now is because I have enough haters and don't need another one, and I'm also very afraid of losing friends, especially since I'm not good at making friends. So yeah.. It hurts that she's ignoring me because I 'ignored her', while I think I did nothing wrong. Besides that, it was that I didn't look her in the eyes when I was standing with others, but ignoring means (I had to learn this for the Cambridge test we had) 'not notice someone on purpose', meaning I didn't ignore her, because I didn't do it on purpose. Bam, I win. I just wish we could be friends again, you know. I had fun with her.
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