Drawing drawing drawing

So em... I forgot if I said this before, but my tablet works again so I finally have something to do again. I'm a really impatient person when it comes to things such as drawing, and I really hate that because it often means I can't improve (since I get mad when things don't work out). So, now I made a plan, I already made a start, but it will take a while. Maybe I'll say the plan later on, maybe I won't~
So, I'm feeling fine right now. But I'm also worried. Weird, fine but worried. Anyway... Do I have homework for tomorrow? Oh well. Why am I talking about homework? Okay I do have to make it in a few seconds. Let it beee, okay? I can be fine too. Hehehe, bee. I hate bees. I don't remember if I saw any last year. I wanted to say 'this year' but it's 2014. And I say it's Autumn. A never ending Autumn - you can write great stories with just that. On the other hand, you'll get a movie like the disney movie Frozen - which is a fine movie btw. ^_^
Okay, I didn't say what I wanted to say. So yeah, I'm worried and then my head goes crazy again (in a bad way) and so I'm thinking of terrible situations again, and often I'm like "Well it's possible, but it's probably not like that". However, right now I'm more like "It's possible. What if it's like that?" and I don't know what to do anymore.
Also, I hate trying to contact someone, but you can't reach that person anywhere at all. And that while there's Facebook, Skype, Whatsapp, Viber, and even more. I just can't think of more, kay? Okay why is it so hard to stay serious right now? Anyway, I can't reach that person anywhere right now and it's killing me - so I know what's going to happen if the situation I was imagining is true. I'll be killed~ No for real, I know I can't stay serious now, but really, if it's true, I really don't know what to do. What if he'll never come back?