I don't want this anymore

Well I guess I never truly wanted this break, but now I just feel like crying my eyes out. I mean, he just contacted me to say 'I love you' and now I just want to cry my eyes out because I really really really don't want this anymore, at all. And now I still have to go downstairs because otherwise my toast is burned - it probably already is. So let's hope my mom won't notice that I'm about to cry.