And now I'm this close to crying

Stupid mother... I mean she did nothing mean, actually. It was just that she asked when Dennis would be here, since I asked a while ago If he could come here when I had two weeks of holidays. Turned out he couldn't be free on those days and that his parents already hate me and think this won't work out, so they don't even allow him to come here. I fucking hate it right now, because I was looking forward to it, like I could finally be with my boyfriend, but no. Instead that was ruined and now I have to wait for 3 goddamn years, and I can't tell my mom, because she will simply think he's not who he says he is our that we broke up. I just want my boyfriend here, is that really too much to ask?
But on the other hand, it's not like I look good these days. I guess that makes it a bit less of a disaster.