Don't worry darling, everything will be alright

Sometimes I just wish someone could say that to me, and really mean it. Well, I'm sure Chris said that several times. In that case I actually shouldn't complain. But I just wish it was true, you know.. That everything will be alright someday, that I stop fighting with everyone, that I can be happy for a full day. Well I did have that several days ago, it's just sad that I was sad all the time yesterday. I just need to stop hurting the people around me, and that shouldn't be hard. But on the other hand, it's easy to hurt people who are very close to you and people you talk to every day. I wish I was an easy person, someone who is easy to love, easy to talk to, easy to be with. But I'm very awkward and people dislike me. I do understand why, though, I just wish I wasn't like that. I just don't know how to change and yeah... I should just move abroad, I feel like people in this country don't accept me, and fine, not everyone in this country is the same, but well... I guess I just have to keep hoping that things will be alright then. I must say that I never believed it when people said it would be alright. I guess I should start believing things then.