Crying

So... I used to love watching animes, and I decided the watch one today again and yeah, in the end I had to cry again. And just now I read something I posted a while ago, and I had to cry again. It's just so sad. Tears just literally rolled down my face. That doesn't happen that often, mostly because I don't let them.
Once you're trapped in a big black hole of terrible feelings, horrific thoughts and what not, it's all over. It all stops at some point, you know. Eventually, everything will end. It will all be gone as soon as you're gone.
You don't just get happy out of nowhere when it feels like you're falling into that big black hole. It doesn't just get better. It might get better when you stop thinking of reality. It's all just a dream, maybe a nightmare. But darling, dreams end, nightmares end. Maybe next year, maybe next month, maybe next week, maybe tomorrow or maybe even in one hour, who knows?