I haven't had any real friends, ever, until I met Luzzie, Dennis and Loes, I met Dennis because of Luzzie, and I met Luzzie and Loes on goSupermodel. It really felt like I had real friends, for the first time in my life. It got me so happy, but now I realize it was all fake. I'm totally forgotten. A real friend wouldn't forget about any of her/his friends, but I'm totally forgotten.
Loes never talks to me, that shows enough. All I'm doing to Dennis is making him feel even worse and Luzzie has totally forgotten about me. She doesn't know me anymore. She never talks to, or about me anymore, which she used to do. She never text me anymore, never, I bet she already removed my number, not remembering to know anyone who's called 'Linda'.
I'm done. Just done. I'd go away now, to a place where no one can safe me if I'd just do it, but I can't. My mom, who keeps telling my I'm searched for (bad) attention, is keeping me home. I never go outside all by myself, so if I'd do it now, she'd probably know something weird is going on, so she's pretty much keeping me home. And I can't do it now, not right here, that's the only thing keeping me from doing it. And my favourite teacher, he's the one I'm living for right now. He's the only one I trust, the only one who hadn't forgotten about me just yet. I damn much hate this all. I wish I could just call him now, telling him I'm one step from doing it, but I can't. I want to end it all. I don't want any of this anymore. I hate it.
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