So yeah, first of all: GODDAMN IT DENNIS, I'M JEALOUS! I watched the video about Rastede, and now I really want to go. So, since I know no one near me who likes the same kind of music as me, I decided to look for a Dutch forum so find some people. I prefer forums over chat stuff like omegle. I mean, Penpal-Gate is fine, but I highly doubt I can find the right people there. And in the end I did find a forum, but almost everyone there is 30 or older and almost no one is active. Which really sucks, because I found someone who is 17 right now, but she hasn't been active there for like 4 years. >_< Right now I did find one girl, or woman, you choose... She's 19 years old and lives not too far away to meet, I'll put it that way. So yeah, I hope she's nice. And I hope she thinks I'm nice too.
Erm, back to the being nervous. So I was nervous in the morning, but not very nervous. Then at school I wasn't nervous, until the second last hour. I suddenly got so nervous I couldn't concentrate at all. And now I'm still nervous. Thank god no one is home. x) Whenever I'm nervous, I tend to go to the toilet a million times, even if I don't have to go there at all and it's actually really annoying. The reason why I don't really want to say a lot about this, is because it's about Dennis. Right now I'm really wondering how his days were and how he feels about.. Well, about 'us'. Now I don't want to say much about it because I don't want him to change his mind because of something I say here. I mean, I prefer that he says "Maybe we should end this relationship" without knowing beforehand what I think and what the hell is going on in my mind (I'm trying to make my mind shut up, okay? xD) than that he says "We could still try" because he does know what I think. Erm, I mean half of what I think. Maybe even less. I can't say all I'm thinking, that is way too much and I refuse to bother anyone with it. x)
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