There we go again

So I don't exactly want to doubt anyone at all, but right now I'm just starting to feel like my boyfriend doesn't love me as much as he used to. It's just so annoying to have that feeling and it's like I used to know he loved me because he called me sweet names and sent me that kiss smiley and he would say he'd hold me close if I was there, and now it just feels like I will never get it because I still don't deserve it. I highly doubt I'll ever deserve it. It's like we're back at where we started: I don't get kisses or hugs unless I send them, and I only get an 'I love you' before going to bed. No 'sweetie', no 'honey', no 'my love', nothing. Like it's just so I'll be fine for now...
Also, I'm dropping everything today. I have no idea what's up, I only know it's really annoying. And I feel terrible. I think I'll stay up for 30 more minutes and then go to bed.