Disappointed

So yesterday I found something out, and now I'm actually really disappointed in Joy. I was talking to Colin, her boyfriend, and then he said 'Bzzzzzz', so I sent him a bee (it was on whatsapp so yeah), turned out Joy told him I'm bisexual. Well fine, I don't really mind. But then he told me he also knew I 'had problems with my boyfriend every now and then', I just don't like to put it that way... Anyway, he also knew about the fact that I've harmed myself and that I was kinda depressed and now I'm so fucking disappointed in Joy. I don't mind that she told HIM, I just mind it that she fucking told someone else my secrets, when I told her those things because I thought I could trust her, and then she does this? This is not something I just forget, you know. It sucks, you trust someone and that person just breaks your trust, like it hasn't happened often enough yet. Once is already too often in my opinion. I fucking hate this.
But there's something positive: I decided to go to bol.com, turns out they'll sell Tuomas' album too! And I was allowed to just go and order an album on bol.com, so... I'm doubting if I should still buy Hydra (from Within Temptation), I mean... I don't really feel like it's a metalband anymore, but I like rock too so in that case it doesn't really matter. I just kinda miss the old Within Temptation, when Sharon would sing high and low too and my god, she was perfect. I used to like the band more than I do now, but we'll see.