I just want another chance

But my problem is that I won't get it and I don't know what to do about it. I have a testweek coming up which will probably be filled with tons of stress and way too much sadness resulting in me not being able to learn everything very well.
But I suppose I'm lucky. Every day I only have to be in school for 1 or 2 hours so I'm alone most of the time. That already makes it a lot easier because at least I can let it all out for now.
Also, just three more weeks till the operation and I'm really getting nervous, which is kinda weird because it really are 3 full weeks.