This is strange and annoying

I've been trying so hard to prepare myself for this feeling, hoping it'd be less bad but no, it's way worse than I expected. Seems like it was all for nothing. I hoped I would feel good enough, instead I feel bad enough for the plans I've had. The failing plans, by the way, because I know that the plans I've had are useless. Oh and I mean some plans I had when I was single. And had no brain. Not that I have so much more of a brain now.
Anyway, now I need a reminder for tomorrow, so that I won't forget looking for my teacher before it's too late.
And also: this damned ear infection should leave.