*Noms down a piece of cake* So is it okay now if I'm afraid as hell that my boyfriend will break up with me very soon? And also, is it normal to look for a crush (like a celebrity crush AND YES I SAID 'look for') just so it might hurt less? Wait, that doesn't even make any sense.
Also, my definition of a crush: When you're interested in someone but you barely know what they're actually like, so you make up a whole personality in your head and then you suddenly like him more than just a friend. I know it sounds stupid, but that is how I think of it. I don't think that when you have a 'crush' on someone, you're actually in love. I've thought about it: Love isn't actual love unless both of you feel that way. So if I love someone who doesn't love me back, it's not real love. I just can't believe that you can fall in love without that the other person loves you back, I just can't, I'd feel like I'm tricking myself if that is the case. That I'm not in love, that I'm just telling myself that I'm in love so that it feels that way.
Okay, enough about crappy love, it's way too confusing and once you're in it, it's impossible to get out of it without pain. I mean you can tell me now that it doesn't hurt when you're the one who stops loving your boyfriend/girlfriend, but I'm sure it does. Especially when you've reached an age in which you really want to find the person you want to spend your life with. And no, I do not think I've reached that age. After all, I think it's different for everyone.
Now back to-- who ate my cake? ;-; Whoever you are, I'll find you!
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