Okay now I'm worried

WHY DO I GET WORRIED SO FAST? ._. And why did I wrote 'fat' instead of 'fast' in the worst place? 'Why do I get worried so fat?', what would that look like? Okay now I don't get myself. I'm worried but still kinda hyper in a way that I start making not-funny jokes. Well, not-funny for most people. I can laugh about them but that's just because I always laugh about my own jokes, whether they're funny or not.
Also, I found something out about myself: I'm not fully sad unless I can't even laugh about a superfunny joke I hear someone telling others. I realised that usually when I just sit somewhere, being sad, and I hear someone tell a funny joke, that I laugh anyway. It's kinda awesome because then I can still know that I'm not fully sad and that it'll be alright after all. Someday. When the sun looks prettier. Don't ask me why, the sun just looks ugly here. I just want to go to Germany or Italy.
And luckily, I'm going to Munich soon. I still wish I could go to Berlin or Hamburg instead but Munich will be fine too, I'm sure. ^_^
Now I'm going to continue being worried. Not because I want to, and it's not like I sit here like "let's be worried!", it's more that I need to pee again, and that always happens when I'm nervous, and apparently also when I'm worried. WHY, DEAR BODY, WHY?! Just show me your good sides instead!