I would love to just scream everything out right now. I don't really know what's up, I'm just irritated. It could be because of school, or because of my headache. In any case, I think it'd be awesome if I could just scream it all out now, maybe it'd help.
And you know what I'd love right now? To live near a forest, or near a river or lake. I might not be allowed to go outside at night, but I would love to just go out for a walk and just sit by a lake, forgetting about the world. That is what I want right now: To forget about everything that's going on. I don't want to worry, I don't want to doubt, I don't want to feel bad without knowing the reason. I just want this all to be over, and give me one reason why that can't happen. I don't think that reason exists.
Right now I just want to feel a little more loved, and since Dennis isn't there (in case he already went to bed, gosh I'm not surprised. ._. I can barely see straight, but that's just me) and my parents and brother don't really want to make me feel loved, I have no one right now. I just want to go back to my uncle, I hadn't seen him for years and I contacted him out of nowhere, and yet he was so sweet for me. He was way sweeter than my parents have been in the past years.
Okay now I'm crying again. The annoying thing is that I'm not sure if I should go to bed or if I should wait. And there's another negative side to going to bed now: I don't know why, but I usually can't fully open my eyes if I fell asleep while or after crying.
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