Fuck fuck fuck

So I feel like shit right now. I have plans for tomorrow, they actually make me fucking nervous, but I can't contact anyone. Colin isn't awake, none of my friends are on whatsapp and I chased Dennis away. Now it's all gone. Now I seriously have nothing anymore.
So I feel dizzy and light in my head and I feel nervous and I feel like shit and I feel like I need to throw up and this is really annoying. I honestly can't believe it's all over, all we ever had...
I just want to end it all right now.