I give up.

I just totally give up. If my mom still had her other job, then my parents would be both gone at 7 AM. Then I'd slip out and go somewhere I don't even know. Then I'd either decide to just kill myself or to go to school and tell my teacher I'm going to kill myself.
Now my plan is just to skip at least the first hour and come at the second hour, when I have biology from the teacher who knows about my problems, then come later in that hour and tell him why I wasn't there in the first few minutes. The problem is, my mother regularly checks Magister so she'd see I had skipped the first hour and that I was too late in the second hour. Either way, I just don't want it anymore. At all. :/