Zero friends left.

It really feels as if I have no friends at all right now. Loes and Luzzie never talk to me anymore, Dennis never talks to me anymore too (He's barely ever online o.O) and Nicola... Well I don't know, it's just.. His phone is stolen and he's not going to buy a new one anytime soon, because he doesn't have the money for it. And since he's not online everyday, the distance between us... It feels like it's growing and it's so freaking annoying. I don't want to lose him. D:
I just want to start all over again, but obviously, I can't. I totally screwed up my life and now I can't get it back, I can't make my life the way I want it to be anymore. :( God damn it, I hate myself right now. Why did I screw up my life? It's just so stupid.
I just want to move away, to a total different country, and then start all over again there, with my family. Well, with my parents and with my brother, not with the rest of my family. But of course, my brother is going to school in Tilburg, and he likes it quite much. Also, my parents don't want to move. I didn't ask them, but I'm sure they don't want to move. After all, we're not rich, so yeah. But moving to a different country is pretty impossible anyway. My dad is good at languages, and my brother is kinda good at languages too, and same with me, but my mom... Really, she's terrible. She only knows a few words in English, she doesn't speak German, she doesn't speak French, actually, the only language she really speaks is Dutch. My dad speaks French, German, English, Dutch and he knows a few words in Italian. My brother speaks English, Dutch, a bit German and he knows a few French words. I speak Dutch, English, a little bit German (I can understand people, I can read things, but I won't understand every single word and I can't really speak it myself) and a little bit French (I can understand quite a few things, but I don't speak it too good). But if I'm willing to learn a new language, then I'd give it my all. And if I'd give it my all, then I could learn it easily. It'd take time, but I can learn it pretty fast if I just want it.
But my mom wouldn't want to move to a different country anyway... Guess I just have to wait... Just 4 more years of school here, and then I can decide myself whether I'm staying in the Netherlands or not.
It's not really that I don't like this house, because I do. I just don't like my town, I don't like my country at all... I just don't feel right here. :/