Crying.

Lately, I've been crying a lot. Last Monday I suddenly started crying and then I couldn't stop anymore. I believe I cried for almost 4 hours, if it wasn't almost 5 hours. And now I'm crying again. I just looked at the first conversation I had with Nicola, on the 1st of September. I remember I was sick the next Monday, I must admit I partially stayed home so I could talk to Nicola.
But looking back, I just really had to cry. Just now I saw that he really didn't forget about me, since he 1. Remembered about me, the girl who asked him for a hug 2. He remembered my brother, who asked for the picture that was made when he was on the stage 3. He remembered that I live in the Netherlands. We haven't talked for 5 days now. Actually for 7 days, but 5 days ago I asked him something and he replied to that. Yesterday and today he's been online for quite a while, but he didn't see the message I sent him. I just really miss talking to him right now.