I just have to say this somewhere

Something is really bothering me, but I don't know who to tell it to, so I guess I'll just write it here for now.
Just a moment ago, I had a... Well, I had some some sort of 'attack'. It's nothing bad, really. But I realised what all I've lost. I've lost pretty much everything I cared about.
For example, my hamster was my life, but I didn't take good care of it so it died and I'm still in denial. Same thing with my guinea pigs. Also, I loved my relationship, but I never really showed it, and now it's gone. Also I had this great friend but instead of showing her I support her, I didn't show her I was there for her so I lost her. And now, I'm about to lose my home as well, unless my mom decides she's fine with having me live here.