You have to choose now.

"You have to choose now, do you care more for the guy you loved first, or the guy you love now?" Thank you, Wii 'Lucky day' thingy, for reminding me once again. -.-' Can't I just forget about what happened and move on? I love Nicola, but I can't get him anyway, so I should let him go. Maybe I'll confess once, when we're good friends and I know our friendship can't be ruined. But until then, I'll just be patiently waiting, right here. Even though I don't want to wait... I'm only 14, so...
It would be kinda funny, though. It would be a wonderful story. If I'd like, marry Nicola in the end, and we'd get a kid, and he/she would ask when we fell in love, I could just say "I feel in love with your dad when I was only 14 years old. At first I was only a bit interested in him. He was dancing very funny on the stage, and he seemed really friendly. The last day that I was in Loano 2, I asked him for a hug. I just had to, and since then I was very sad because I couldn't see him. Every time I talked to him on Facebook, I just got so happy and I wanted to be able to hug him every single day. I wanted him and only him, and in the end, I got him".
I want to be able to say that. I want to be able to say that I knew he were the one for me, I want to prove myself wrong, that he does care about me, and that he does love me...