Missing the beach.

In Spring, my dad really wanted to go to the beach, but the weather was terrible, really. It was raining and all. And since I love the beach, and nowadays the weather's quite nice, I want to go to the beach. But due to my moms work, I can't. Last weekend she was free, but I woke up at 12 so I couldn't go to the beach anymore then because it's about 2,5 hours from here. :S
And I have a trauma with some kind of bikini, and since I only have 2 bikini's 1 trust and one bikini where I have a trauma with, I wanted more bikini's so me and my mom are looking for bikini's, but god, it's hard. I can barely find any nice ones. Because they're either boring, or it's the same model as the one I have a trauma with. :/ It's really annoying. But, we found 3 nice ones and they're arriving tomorrow. ;3
Just the thing is, I have A-cup, and I actually really hate that. 14 and barely even A-cup. Most people who I see already have B-cup or whatever. ;-; Yup, I hate my boobs.
Why am I even talking about that?