I knew it!

"What Harper really wanted to do was go someplace dark and quiet with him, to give in to the warmth of his voice and the strength of his arms. To have him hold her and kiss her until she couldn't feel anything but him, until she'd forgotten about the ache inside,"
I knew it. I knew I wasn't the only one who would love to do that. I must say though, if I re-read that, it really sounds like a romantic book which is exactly the kind of book I would hate. I don't know the genre, most likely a bit horror-ish with all the heart eating, murdering, sirens and all the drama about Harper who won't find her sister the way she used to be. I once read a few sentences at the end of this book, I did that last year and stopped reading just because of what happened there. I didn't like it, so I didn't want to read further until I have the other book from the series. Well not the first book, stupid enough I started at the second book but oh well.
I feel guilty right now. I feel like I did something stupid, like I did something wrong and that I should apologise to Dennis. I don't really know why, maybe it's because of something I said earlier, or my way of acting lately. Hm well not lately, but.. One week ago, I believe. I just don't know what's up with me. When I watch the video of him, I just sit here, wondering why I never show him how much I appreciate him or how much I love him, but I have to be honest, I just don't know how. I know he wants me to let him go so he has a real life too and that he wants me to be happy but I just don't know what to do. I do know what I would do in real life though, I would hug him and just not let him to for a long while. Only I am not so sure if that'd be nice or evil. :P
But for real... Right now I could just literally cry my eyes out because I can't hear his voice and I can't feel his arms around me. I wish the situation was different.